All the adoption books tell you to prepare for your paper pregnancy like you would for a physical pregnancy. I don't drink or smoke and I was already taking a multivitamin, so I wasn't quite sure what I was supposed to do. But months before I was matched with Little One, a late night on Etsy found me an antique locket. I bought it, stuck it in the jewelry box and waited for the unknown day I would know what to do with it. November 1st I became Little One's forever mommy. November 1st is the day I put his photo in the locket and I have worn it every day since. My hands find it during the day and I pray over the little person that it represents. I appreciate the warmth of the back of the locket against my chest and I during the weeks & months that I had not publicly announced Little One, I cherished the secrecy that the silver shape held.
Every week or so when I visit my two year old nephew, he asks to see 'da baby' and grabs at chain around my throat. I open it, we talk about his cousin who lives in China and the day that Auntie Des will bring him home on the airplane. It's understandably complex for most people, especially a two year old, so I was especially impressed several weeks ago when I asked my nephew "Where does your cousin live?". My nephew didn't skip a beat...looked me right in the eye and declared..."he wibs in da neck-wis!"
Well...I can't argue with that!
We are so close, Little One. I can't wait for you to have years of memories with your friends & cousins. They all love you so much already!
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