Sometimes God's hand doesn't move they way you think it should, or the way you want, or in the timeline you think is best. Sometimes it just doesn't make any earthly sense why things turn out the way they do.
My girly was in her best blue princess dress seated behind me in the court room; my son in his handsome blue plaid shorts and matching polo, both displaying stellar behavior. I was so proud of them. When the judge asked me if I was willing to adopt my girly I boldly stated "I DO" and looked over my left shoulder at my Sweet Girl---I had never seen a bigger smile on her face! Cue the momma tears. But after waiting 7 months in the U.S. and 53 days in Albania, our judge declared our adoption on hold until mid September, finalizing in the adoption in early to mid-October. Three months from now. The reason makes ZERO legal or human sense and despite having the in-person support of the Albanian governmental adoption committee, the Sisters at the orphanage (who currently have legal custody of my girl), our respected international adoption agency and an Albanian lawyer specializing in child welfare at my side there was no convincing our judge that his demands were not in the best interest of my child, not to mention legally ridiculous. Insane is the only way to describe it (in all honestly, I used another, shorter word that had only ever left my lips once before).
I do not understand why this happened. But I do not doubt God's character.
I do not know how I'm going to tell my girl her family has to go home with out her. But I do not doubt God's unending faithfulness.
I do not know how we are going to manage at home with school, work and finances etc with split maternity leave. But I do not doubt God's provision.
I do not understand how my girly is going to process re-attaching to us after 3 months of being apart. But I do not doubt God's unconditional love for me, for her or my family.
With all the things I do not understand or all the words I want to scream in my pillow tonight I am holding on to this...God is still good, even when I do not understand.
We have a lot to process and arrangements to make for my girly and for our return home. We'll post more information as we have it. Until then we covet your continued prayer coverage as we walk this unknown path on the adoption road.
I do not understand why this happened. But I do not doubt God's character.
I do not know how I'm going to tell my girl her family has to go home with out her. But I do not doubt God's unending faithfulness.
I do not know how we are going to manage at home with school, work and finances etc with split maternity leave. But I do not doubt God's provision.
I do not understand how my girly is going to process re-attaching to us after 3 months of being apart. But I do not doubt God's unconditional love for me, for her or my family.
With all the things I do not understand or all the words I want to scream in my pillow tonight I am holding on to this...God is still good, even when I do not understand.
We have a lot to process and arrangements to make for my girly and for our return home. We'll post more information as we have it. Until then we covet your continued prayer coverage as we walk this unknown path on the adoption road.
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