You had another really peaceful week. I would even say it was joyful for both of us. I've been reading & re-reading some adoption/trauma/attachment books and have been using some different tactics for us both. It seem to be working. You have also picked up some new English phrases which include:
"Moooommmm. I knoooowwww!" And "Yeah, I remember". *hehe* Apparently, I'm a total nag. Sheesh. *insert eyeroll & some pretty solid giggles*
We took a family trip to the Circus this week and you LOVED IT! I was a little concerned because it is so much stimulation coming at you at once, but you were TOTALLY engaged and talked about it for days after. There were elephants and tigers and dogs and horses and acrobats and a giant transforming car, but you said clearly the horses with trick riders were your favorite.
You and I had a really precious moment this week too. I haven't been quite sure what your next move in your organic neuro re-org was going to be so I've just been watching & waiting to see what's next. One evening this week you were upset and I was struggling to figure out why (looking back I think it was the back door being left open in the evening sun. I suspect open doors weren't encouraged at the institution). I attempted to talk it out with you and you responded by climbing onto my lab face forward, laying your head on my chest...just like you see your brother do. You sat there for nearly 30 minutes. You didn't want your back rubbed but you let me rock you and brush your hair and sing Jesus Loves You softly over you. I was doing my best to hide my tears while I told you "this is what mommies do, Mila. Mommies are safe. Mommies love and rock and sing." I am so very grateful that you are going back to fill in these developmental holes. God placed a lot of wonderful women in your life to keep you safe, but a momma of your own was never in that lineup. And I've spent A LOT of hours rocking and singing over your brother in the exact same way. What a previous gift to have that time with you too.
Isaac:
The outdoors are your domain as your sister hasn't yet decided our yard is a safe place. Now that the weather is changing you can spend hours in your playset making 'ice cream sand'. You take orders for chocolate with sprinkles and strawberry with vanilla. And you are always very accommodating when I ask for some whip cream on top. "Sure! I do it!" Creating is in your DNA--you are such a right brained kid! So much so your team at school makes regular curriculum changes to make sure you are successfully engaged. I love seeing you figure life out this way; finding the beat; seeing the colors; creating something new.
Also...turns out when I forget to bring cash to the cash-only Circus and therefore can't buy you popcorn, you'll turn and eat someone else's when none of us are looking! Annnndddd...sneak a sip out of a nearby snowcone straw. DUDE. I promise to bring cash next time!
Me:
I have been acutely aware of spring's arrival over the last ten days. Maybe it was because our winter was so intense this year, but boy is spring beautiful! Hummingbirds and woodpeckers have been in the back yard. I nearly ran off the road watching a stunning bluejay while driving home from work. Two giant deer also crossed in front of me on that drive too! I can smell the fresh cedar being laid out and the cherry blossoms are in full bloom. It's all just so stunning and life affirming. Joy always comes in the morning.
I got to have TWO lunch dates this week with good friends. TWO in the same week! I can't tell how you that fed my heart. Adult conversation...uninterrupted adult conversation, is not something I get to have very often and to have two sit downs with dear friends, good food, tears & belly laughs...I walked away with a full heart.
I'm taking my goofballs on a spring break trip this next week. Just the three of us on a plane to sun & warmth!
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